Why is everything I want to be so far away
from what I turn into?
Why does my body and my skin freeze
when I want to keep breathing?
Why is everything so dark and cold
whenever I feel like burning?
Why does my skin bleed
where it misses to be touched?
Why do I need
Ice cream and wine
and Vanilla and candles
and a flower patch in the rain
and strawberries and cream at midnight
to summon a version of me
which survives?
„Why is tricking reality so tough?“, I ask my witch as I swallow another midnight snack which tonight lays tasteless on my tongue.
„Because sometimes reality comes through and reminds you how much it still sucks“, Layla responds and disappears into the garden to find the right tea leaves for this night.
Why I am not a nice girl
I am not your nice, Christian girl next door, as you might have noticed. And this is not a role I play for this blogging project, or to promote my writing and music. This is me, and I stick to it, even when it gets complicated, and believe me: It becomes an issue more often…
Intimate tale
I yearn for those moments,When I existedsolelyin your eyes.When I wasnothingBut an image causingCuriosity.I lived in those momentsWhen you knewNothingAbout the scarsBetween myThighs.Moments that werePure and softAnd kept mySecretWithout anyFalsity.In those momentsI felt loveFor all the thingsYou mustn’tKnow.All the thingsWent looseWithin myHeadAnd found their wayOnto myTongue.I still amThese momentsWhen I hadYouAnd you deniedThe thingsI wanted…
The tale of mental health in a burning world
“Wanna feel better?”, my witch asks me as she presents tonight’s options. Do we want to get drunk and risk a headache? Do we want to try out yoga again although we’ve never managed to take it seriously? Do we want to escape the last traces of reality by watching a sitcom and ignoring the…
Mistress witch writes 