This post is an invitation to come with me to a special place. I have a place that makes me want to tell my stories. This place feels like witches are hiding between the trees, and alchemists are challenging the world behind those glowing windows in the far. It feels haunted, fallen out of time,Continue reading “My haunted historical fiction place”
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A writing sense of nostalgia
I have always had a thing for biographies. I loved exploring where someone came from, in which steps their life had happened, and what traces that had left behind.When I was about ten years old, I read the biographies of Mozart, Avril Lavigne, and Hölderlin, since those were the most important people for me toContinue reading “A writing sense of nostalgia”
March Melancholia
„The sunset is pink again“, I tell my witch and she giggles out into the night.„Is that you‘re reason to cry?“, she asks. I have always enjoyed it when the sunset is taking longer, painting more colours at the horizon at the end of the day. The promising of warmer, better days.The memory of lifeContinue reading “March Melancholia”
Reality challenged thoughts of a witch
Maybe I am only slowly understanding my connection to reality. Maybe I need to take half a step out of my skin to have the right perspective to tell stories, or maybe the „Barbie“ – movie almost made me change the names of my online accounts – this is a thing I am still thinkingContinue reading “Reality challenged thoughts of a witch”
What does healing even mean?
I am sitting at a restaurant late at night, and I feel pretty with my cat ears on. The friendly words of the person in front of me are so disturbing that I wait for touching piano music to drown out the chatting and clattering all around, and as he reaches out to pet myContinue reading “What does healing even mean?”
Dystopia fault
The horizon is glowing.The days keep coming, in purple and blue.„Is this my Dystopia fault?“, I ask my witch. In the past years, I have come across one statement about the newly felt fragility of life very often, and I have constantly felt as if something about that was not right.So often have I readContinue reading “Dystopia fault”
Personal essay – Searching for a warm thought in an autumn night!
Since it‘s a dark and seemingly endless November night that also has me trapped in bed with another Covid-infection, I think it‘s time to question my motivation, and my witch giggles. “Yes, that is what makes these nights easier”, she whispers into our midnight coffee. Where were we?My motivation to make it through the darkContinue reading “Personal essay – Searching for a warm thought in an autumn night!”
Why being human is so terrifying
„Is it called eye shadow, because you use it to paint extra shadows under your eyes?“, my witch asks as I blink into the mirror and the upper eyelid, the under one as well as my cheeks are sparkling in silver. Still sparkling, but also looking ill.Looking like no decent sleep for a while.Like aContinue reading “Why being human is so terrifying”
Why I once loved to watch sitcoms! A few memories.
I wanted to write about my old love for sitcoms for a while now, but of course had to wait for the saddest opportunity to do so, because it‘s me…„It‘s the comforting evening ritual and background chatter I used to get through the day before I knew how to summon you“, I tell my witchContinue reading “Why I once loved to watch sitcoms! A few memories.”
Nostalgia and fragility – A history – photo post!
Places can tell so many stories. Just think of all the things walls could give away about you, if they could talk and were able to remember.Some places that I have been to with my witch felt like a kind of fairytale that I would have liked to read when I was little. Some othersContinue reading “Nostalgia and fragility – A history – photo post!”
Spiraling with the dead! For my grandmother.
„It‘s so obvious!“, my witch complains about every opening sentence that I have attempted to write for this blog post yet. Sometimes, it takes time to realize the most obvious things, even if they wait at every corner everyday. Or maybe even because they do. This one is about the dead which I have enviedContinue reading “Spiraling with the dead! For my grandmother.”
Thoughts on friendship!
„I have once met a collector of souls as well“, my witch whispers.Tonight, we‘re thinking about friendship.It can be heartbreaking where desperate souls go. When I was in my early 20s (and yes, it hurts to speak about this in past tense), I enjoyed watching the sitcom „Friends“ a lot. I needed the cozy feelings.Continue reading “Thoughts on friendship!”
About being difficult
„So, we‘re just going to embrace a stake, if we see one?“, my witch giggles into my ear, while I am still shaking. With fury, I think.„If we don‘t, it‘s gonna be there either way.“ This one is about being a little bit difficult. When I turned 13, my mother got me a card thatContinue reading “About being difficult”
The painful reality of being a woman
I‘ve had a reason to celebrate lately!I faced the meanest monster. I have fought my demons for now. For a little while. Oh, now that I think about it too much, I tend to think that maybe I am a bit too happy, because life just keeps being a mess.But still – I thought IContinue reading “The painful reality of being a woman”
About the good things in life
„Against all odds“, where the words my witch and I were living by for a very long time, and I keep wondering what kind of life can be spent in the light of these words. It‘s the kind of words to whisper onto the horizon at night on a field, or with an open bottleContinue reading “About the good things in life”
Summer solstice thoughts!
„The days are already getting shorter“, I tell my witch, as we once again hurry to fall asleep before sunrise, after a long night of witching discussions, as the horizon is already painted in a faint red.„You‘ve promised to take me apple picking for years now“, my witch complains and I roll my eyes.She isContinue reading “Summer solstice thoughts!”
Post between writing and living
I have been thinking about the relationship I have to my writing.Or, let‘s call it the one thing that I wish to matter about my life, which for me personally is to create and tell stories. Do I want my life to revolve around that one thing? Or, do I want my life to happenContinue reading “Post between writing and living”
Dystopia mind
There is an iced latte in front of me and the sun is shining.My words to the person in front of me had been enough to fill pages, as well as to end the patience in the kind eyes looking at me.„You are catastrophizing again!“„Am I?“„Yes!“„But are you sure that I‘m not right?“Desperation sparkles uniquelyContinue reading “Dystopia mind”
Fertility thoughts!
I am sitting at my mother‘s kitchen table.The yellow wallpaper is glowing in the evening sun, while the radio got stuck in the 70s.We are having a late Espresso, and I catch a wave of empathy on my mother‘s face.„Women don‘t have it easy“, she says in deep contemplation. „The clock is ticking constantly andContinue reading “Fertility thoughts!”
Happy-ending-thoughts!
Do you enjoy happy endings?Does a story where things work out in the end and that leaves you with a calming feeling in your stomach really catch you? I feel as if sad, or even catastrophic endings have a much deeper impact an almost everyone of us. In classical literature, tragedies are so much moreContinue reading “Happy-ending-thoughts!”
Dystopia conclusion!
It has finally happened.The other day, I have read on the news that the pandemic is no longer a public health emergency. Was that the term? I hope so.I am not going to discuss whether this is right or wrong, or too early, but since the motivation to start this blog and my witching-writing-journey cameContinue reading “Dystopia conclusion!”
Facing the witching novel! A writing update
Tonight, I am thinking about what your main character means to you while writing, or reading!! Do you need a character that inspires you and has all kinds of qualities, or even just one important one, you wish you had? Or is it a flawed one that has a long journey of development ahead whichContinue reading “Facing the witching novel! A writing update”
Tale about the modern world
„How do you live in a world like this?“, I ask my witch one morning with an empty pot of coffee in hand. In a world with roads reaching further than eyes can see?With a forest growing over each and everyone’s head.With hilltops too high up to ever be climbed.Full of spirits to confuse you.LostContinue reading “Tale about the modern world”
Thoughts on inspiration
„Sometimes, it all makes sense“, I tell my witch.Not over a Vanilla Latte, or even a bottle of wine, this time.In moments like these it‘s not needed.„It all fits together. And I want to hold on to that feeling, before the world confuses me again.“„This sometimes is 4 AM?“, my witch giggles, and I haveContinue reading “Thoughts on inspiration”
Faithless thoughts of a witch
The melancholia of the early days in spring had me thinking about what keeps me going.Or what kept me going in the past, when a lot more good things seemed to have happened, than these days.I spent the spring equinox with a fever and an infected throat in a bed from where I could atContinue reading “Faithless thoughts of a witch”
I don’t do well with endings!
I don‘t do well with endings. I remember myself not reading my favourite books over a certain point, because I didn‘t want to. I had enjoyed the setting as it had started and I was worried about all the development to come.What would change?The colors, the feeling?Where would my favourite characters go?Who would still beContinue reading “I don’t do well with endings!”
Tomorrow thoughts!
„Are these thoughts ever easy?“, I ask my witch over a midnight cup of coffee. Tomorrow, I hope to see you again.But, tomorrow will probably not be that day.Maybe a day after a tomorrow, another tomorrow. Will we have a tomorrow? „There probably are people that don‘t constantly eat their own brain“, Layla responds. „Somewhere.“„EvenContinue reading “Tomorrow thoughts!”
Stories in mind – why representation matters!
Tonight, I am wondering about the impact a story can have on our life! On our world view.How much they can or cannot shape the eyes we watch through.What we take from them wherever we go next. This keeps bothering, because recently I struggled more than before with representations I saw consumed so easily byContinue reading “Stories in mind – why representation matters!”
Deadline thoughts!
These are the thoughts of a perfectly sane – wait, no!I can‘t say that about myself anymore.But perfectly reasonable thoughts of a women – and my witch rolls her eyes at me.Yes, let‘s stick with person with a uterus, to not even try to hide our struggle.„And reasonable?“, Layla mocks me. „What about this isContinue reading “Deadline thoughts!”
The witch and consequences
Some truths belong into candle light with a cup of tea, boiling hot and with sugar.Yes, witches need their sugar.And we’re not sorry. “When do you accept that you don’t always know the consequences of things”, my witch giggles, and as I scoff offended, the light dances and flickers.Of course I am aware of theContinue reading “The witch and consequences”
Mistress witch writes 